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Monday, September 19, 2011
I am alive...Barely
I have closed myself off when I have needed to reach out to my friends. I have been lost the last 3 years and 7 months. So lost.
I guess when John died half of me died too..There where bad times in our marriage. I won't lie. But 23 years with someone is a long time..You never realize how long till they are gone.
Donna I have thought of you every single day. And Patty, Dawn, Nina, Whitey, and Robin and all of you..Wanted to reach out but couldn't.
I am reaching out now. I have been working on ideas and creating again. Had an affair with a man I loved totally...But did not work out.. And I lost my job 5 months ago... My car got repossessed and my lights and gas got turned off and I am staying with my Mom till I get on my feet. Do I feel like a failure? No. I just feel determined to get my life back together again.
So if any of you out there still love me and think of me...Please contact me..I will respond to you promptly...Smiling softly and sadly
Love Nita
Ps. my e-mail is ruezimmerman@gmail.com Rue is a name that I adopted for myself at my lowest point it means sorrow....It fits ...But I won't always be sorrowful..I promise..Maybe a little sad because of life's circumstances..though
I do have some good news but let's save it for the next post.
I have closed myself off when I have needed to reach out to my friends. I have been lost the last 3 years and 7 months. So lost.
I guess when John died half of me died too..There where bad times in our marriage. I won't lie. But 23 years with someone is a long time..You never realize how long till they are gone.
Donna I have thought of you every single day. And Patty, Dawn, Nina, Whitey, and Robin and all of you..Wanted to reach out but couldn't.
I am reaching out now. I have been working on ideas and creating again. Had an affair with a man I loved totally...But did not work out.. And I lost my job 5 months ago... My car got repossessed and my lights and gas got turned off and I am staying with my Mom till I get on my feet. Do I feel like a failure? No. I just feel determined to get my life back together again.
So if any of you out there still love me and think of me...Please contact me..I will respond to you promptly...Smiling softly and sadly
Love Nita
Ps. my e-mail is ruezimmerman@gmail.com Rue is a name that I adopted for myself at my lowest point it means sorrow....It fits ...But I won't always be sorrowful..I promise..Maybe a little sad because of life's circumstances..though
I do have some good news but let's save it for the next post.