Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'Ole

Mom is worse everyday..Dementia started setting in a few years ago. She is not diagnosed, but Grandma had it, and she has begun to act just like her.

My world is sad so often because of her gradual decline. She cussed me out today..This morning..And my heart felt like it was in a vise..I felt like a bird with a knot in my throat. And I cried...And I cried. So many tears.

I remembered her when I was little..Her mind sharp. She was working in the garden. And I stood at the window and watched her. I loved her pink shirt and her blue shorts. She looked so much younger than her actual age.

And I loved her..I still love her. But things are different now. She cries to me. "I am losing my mind."

And I say, "No Mom you aren't." But I know she is..Sorrow is like this wind tunnel that blows over me 1,000 miles an hour.

I wake everyday and I pray for her..God please let her have peace now. Let her be happy. For she has never really had the chance to be very happy.

Melancholy has wiped me out today. It has a temporary hold for a while.

I am working on the house and trying not to think about it too much. Because tomorrow is a new day.

love Nita

Stevie Nicks - Bella Donna

Coming out of the darkness...Smiling softly

Laura Story - Blessings

I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure which is: Try to please everyone.

Herbert Bayard Swope

I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life
by conscious endeavor.

Thoreau

The more the marble wastes, the more the statue grows.

Michelangelo

Mirth is like
a flash of lighting,
that breaks through
a gloom of clouds,
and glitters for a moment;
cheerfulness keeps up
a kind of daylight in the mind,
and fills it with a steady
and perpetual serenity.

Joseph Addison

Light seeking light
doth light beguile.

Shakespeare

Neither a lofty degree
of intelligence
nor imagination nor both together
go to the making of genius.
Love, love, love,
that is the soul of genius.

Mozart

You see things;
and you say, "Why?"
But I dream things
and I say, "Why not?"

George Bernard Shaw

Just trust yourself,
then you will know
how to live.

Goethe

Action is the antidote
to despair.

Joan Baez

Melody Gardot - Love Me Like A River Does

I am going to start selling books for altered art within the next three weeks. And selling my jewelry. I have a lot of supplies. I have been scared to..But my stuff is good. Will keep you all posted. I am feeling more courageous. Thank you to whom ever prays me..I feel it.

love Nita

B.o.B - Nothin' On You [feat. Bruno Mars] (Video)

This song makes me happy..I feel better today. I feel more hopeful. A friend gave me some great ideas yesterday. And I am going to explore them. Started writing a plan out last night.

Love Nita

Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine

I love, love, love this song...It makes me feel what it is like falling in love..again

Mixed Media with Suzi Blu: Butterfly

Awesome...

Mixed Media with Suzi Blu

Suzi Blu is a creative genius...And funny

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And the rain falls down and there is no pain and no sound...

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Beth Orton

Woke up crying..

Things are so tough. I have no furnace..Just 2 space heaters..Applied for one. Pray for me that I get one. It is fixing to turn really cold.

On a bright note my orchard bloomed and it is beautiful..It has made my whole week. When I walk past it I feel so happy and it makes me feel less chilled. Smiling softly and sadly.

Love Nita

P.s If anyone is going through a rough time right now like me..Don't give up..Things will be brighter..Someday

Donny Hathaway - A Song For You

Just listening to this as I clean..Wouldn't it be wonderful if someone sang this to you..Just you?

Ben Harper - In Your Eyes

I remember there were days I was so lonely I tied notes to tumbleweeds and sent them off on the wind. Like Evie in Conagher ..The book by Louis la'More.

Some days. even now I feel that way. I feel alone.

I feel as if I am choking on the things I can't seem to change, and I lay prostrate on the floor and beg God not to leave me...I pray He helps me to have the strength I need to change. I want to so bad..To change.

I have lost my words lately..My ability to write stories. And I grieve for that.

And I grieve over this computer..I can't leave comments on any one's site. And I feel as I am always in a one sided conversation.

And often I feel so weak. I am ashamed to admit that. And I feel like the worst sinner in the world. I cuss and smoke cigarettes and tell dirty jokes sometimes.

Gotta clean the house. I don't know if anyone is reading this..But if you are thanks.

love Nita

Jolie Holland - Mexican Blue (fan video)

If I could go anywhere today..
It would be with you

I would happily clean the toilet with you. Watch boring football games..And soak in the warmth of you.Thank God you can't stand sports.

I would walk to a neighboring state with you and trade you shoes if yours got wet

My coat would reside with you if you got cold

And if you cried..I would cry too

Watching you sleep with your hand curled into a small fist makes my heart beat with love

And if your ship went down in the middle of the ocean and we had no lifeboat I would spend my time listening to whatever you had to say

And when the waves took us over I would whisper in your ear

I love You

Nita- Barrow Zimmerman Skibinski
@December 4, 2011

Me singing River, by Joni Mitchell

I woke to the smell of coffee and tangerines..And this song was playing in my head. It is almost Christmas. And the grey skies swirl about me like ghosts with their sheer sadness.

Today I will only allow myself a small time to grieve for what I can't change. And then I will change what I can.

Even though it is grey and and raining I will make the house bright with lights..Soft lights.

And I will make something good to eat. Like toast with plum jelly.

love Nita