this is what i want to do today

not hurt you with my words

i could...but it is pointless

what can change dark but light

i pray for you everyday...that is the truth

i miss some things about you...but not enough to take you back

i miss being held..i do

but how could you lay by me and not know my heart

how could you not care?

how could you look at my face... that had love for you... and do the things you did?

couldn't you see i was a gift? 

i got up every morning and i was happy to make you breakfast and coffee and bring it to bed....so you could watch the news

i was happy to have dinner done for you everyday when you got home from work

and i had 2 gallons of tea on the top shelf..always

it is the little things like these things that you will most i fear

it is the scent of my hair on the wind freshly washed...that will float past your face and you will feel a pain like you have never felt

i see it 

in my heart

i see that

you will miss how i made you laugh

and how i appreciated the little things 

like gifts of bird seed

and tulip bulbs

you will see that i was good, honest and fair

and you will miss it

because now you will meet some women who aren't

they won't care

but i pray God never lets you go from His hands

i pray that He is with you always and that someday you will see what you have been missing all these years

by nita barrow- zimmerman