{Moth on Light Fixture in my House}

John and I always wanted to have our own antique shop. He was going to make bird houses and furniture. I was going to make seashell mirrors and pressed flower pictures and all sorts of things.

He encouraged me to create. He had so much faith in me. Even when I had no faith in myself. John has helped me more than any other person to believe in myself.


I went to a bead shop a few months after he died just to look around. I sat and watched the lady who was working there create this beautiful bracelet. After she was finished I asked her if she would teach me how to make them. She told me that of course she would. It was a slow evening and I was the only one in there, so I sat there and learned how make bracelets and necklaces.

It has soothed me just to create, and has helped soothe the sadness of losing John.

I have taken a big step and opened my own Etsy shop. For all of you out there who have never heard of Etsy. It is a place that sells handmade items and art materials for creating. They are all about the little man.

I will be selling jewelery that I have made. And vintage photos, and many other items that I have created. My shop is to the left of this post, if you have time I would be happy if you checked it out.

I don't have many items listed yet. But will by tomorrow evening.

I would like to send out a big thank you to Dawn, Colette, Robin, Nathalie. Dawn helped me set my shop up. Colette explained many things from how to upload photos, to how pay pal works.

Robin and Nathalie both encouraged me to do my shop.

I have another blog that you can see all of my work at. It is Red Tin Heart Creations, same name as my Etsy Shop. All you have to do is click on my profile and you will see it at the bottom of that page. I have had problems loading some photos on Etsy because the pixels were too big on some of my pictures, so there are a few more things on this site than Etsy.
I hope you get a chance to look at them.


I appreciate you ladies so very much.

And I want to thank all of you who have been here to help me through my loss of John. I really do not know what I would have done without you all.

I wrote this poem a few years ago at the request of my counselor. She asked that I write a poem to the girl I had been. This is it.


I would climb a mountain to set you free from your prison of grief.

An ocean 12,000,000 miles long, I would swim just to see you strong.

I would fly to the moon on wings made of silken threads and risk my life, my limb to set you free from all that's within.

Nita Barrow- Zimmerman

I feel like I have reached a measure of peace within myself, be it small. It is still a gift.

I am not Catholic, but my John was raised Catholic. And he fascinated me with all his knowledge about Catholicism. In all of our years together he never asked me to convert, if he would have, I would have done it for him. I watch Catholic television almost everyday. To me there is great wisdom in their teaching.
I am holding a candle I bought a week ago. It is Our Lady of Perpetual Help. I light it everyday for my family and friends and say a prayer for them. It comforts me.. Her face is so very gentle and filled with compassion. We need that in our world. People who are filled with compassion. It makes life so much better.

These are some scriptures I read this evening that I thought might encourage you.

Psalm 55:22

Give your burdens to the Lord. He will carry them. He will not permit the godly to slip or fall.

Psalm 56:8

You have seen me tossing and turning through the night. You have collected all my tears and preserved them in your bottle! You have recorded every one of them in Your book.

Psalm 138:16

You saw me before I was born and scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe. Every day was recorded in Your book!

Please Pray...

Update: The swelling in Jamie's leg is down. But she goes back to the doctor Wednesday. Thank you for your prayers..I know they helped.
Nita

I am asking everyone to please pray for my sister Jamie. Her right leg has been swelling since Friday evening and she doesn't know why. She has to go to the doctor tomorrow. Jamie means the world to me.
Please pray that she will be alright. With all my heart I thank you.
I will keep you posted.
Love Nita

I saw some birds eating bread crumbs today in the parking lot while I was waiting for my sister to get off work.
The Starling's picked at the Sparrows and tried to chase them away from the crumbs. One of the Starlings pecked one Sparrow very hard and knocked him over. My heart ached for the little Sparrow. But the Sparrow fought back, and he and another Sparrow chased the Starling away.
And I thought to myself, isn't that the way it is in life. The big guy always wants to hurt the little guy. Someone always wants what another has.
But we have to fight sometimes..We can't lay there and just take it.
We have to be brave enough to fight for what is ours. I want to encourage you tonight, don't give up. God helps us when we are weak. He gives us that extra strength we need to defend ourselves when we need to.
And He is our defender when we can't fight anymore..
Sending love out ..~Nita~

Tonight's Song is, Somebody's Praying by Ricky Scaggs
1st video, 1st clip

I heard this song many years ago during an exceptionally rough time in my life. I was overwhelmed with the feeling of God's mercy while I listened to it. And, I thought of all the people who had prayed me through so many bad times. I love this song. I hope you have time to listen to it, it will bless you. And know that somebody is praying for you..

A dear friend of our family has requested prayer for her Mother. She was diagnosed with having several brain tumors yesterday. They thought it was only one..Then discovered it was many more.

They are not sure if they are cancerous yet. Judy is Christanna's Mother. Please say a pray for them. Christanna is really torn up by this..
~Nita~