Elizabeth is out of the hospital. But she is not out of the woods. They are going to begin a treatment plan for her. They have more tests to do to try to pinpoint what this is. It is directly linked to her spleen. But they are not sure if it is her spleen totally. I believe one reason they let her go was because she has no health coverage.

She is on pain medication to keep down the pain. But there has to be an answer to this. I have been researching her condition. I hope we will have an answer soon on how to help her. Because her life is on hold till then. Because of all the pain. She can't work. Can't go to school. Because of the pain.

If anyone has any ideas please e-mail me or leave a comment.

love Nita


They were going to remove the spleen, but they want to be sure that is the right thing to do.

Elizabeth was admitted to Barnes Hospital in St. Louis this past Thursday. I have not left her side. She is getting a liver biopsy tomorrow. I am crying so hard right now that I can't hardly breath. She has suffered so much the last 1 1/2 year ..They have done so many tests. They do believe it is her spleen but have to be positive before removing it.

Some times I feel like sorrow knows no limit...I am praying and having faith that she will be ok.

She is asleep. She is in so much pain. Please pray for her and me.

Sorry...

love Nita

Please Pray for Elizabeth

Please pray for Elizabeth she was rushed to the hospital today..She is getting her spleen removed next week. She is in serious condition. Please pray.

Love Nita

Grow....

She taught me that grief is a time to be lived through, experienced fully, and that the heavens will not fall if I give voice to to my anger against God in such a time. - Elizabeth Watson

My anger is legitimate, and will burn away sooner if I acknowledge and express it.

it may be that some little root of the scared tree still lives
Nourish it then
that it may leaf and bloom and fill with singing birds -Black Elk

These words were taken from the book, "Healing After Loss" by Martha Whitmore Hickman

A truly wonderful book..I encourage anyone who is going through a hard time to buy it or rent it from the library.

I took the photo of the Wisteria vine about a month ago..I hope you like it.

Love Nita

Seasons...

Their house was my refuge when I was small. My Grandma and Grandpa Barrow's house.

Grandma had a back porch that was painted mint green and was filled with vines. And every kind of plant you could imagine. When I was little I use to hide in a corner on the back porch and pretend I was in a jungle. I imagined the attic had monsters and a ghost lived in the well.

This time of the year makes me think of them so strongly.

My Grandfather was a warm loving man who taught me to love gardening. He would say, " Nene, you always plant your garden the second week of May. That way the frost is gone and the maple seeds have already dropped. Maple seeds here can be quite a burden. We call them whirly jigs. They are lovely falling down. Like anxious fairies looking for homes. But everywhere they light they bring more trees.

Grandma and Grandpa's house was right across the street from my grade school. And even now when I pass their home my heart aches.

In my mind I see Grandma hanging clothes out on the clothesline. Smiling as she sang amazing grace. I see Grandpa bent over in the garden tying strings to the pole beans..

I have learned that people are in our lives for a season. Some will always be there. From birth to death. Some for just a few months. Some for a week. We must take everything good from the people around us and discard the bad.

Learn the lessons they have to teach us and be willing pupils. Accept what you feel is right and don't take in what you think is wrong.

So today I encourage you to love those around you..They may only be there for a short while. And live like this was your last day on earth everyday.

xoxo Nita


tonight's song is, Home by Joe Diffie

A song close to my heart...hope you like it