Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'Ole

Mom is worse everyday..Dementia started setting in a few years ago. She is not diagnosed, but Grandma had it, and she has begun to act just like her.

My world is sad so often because of her gradual decline. She cussed me out today..This morning..And my heart felt like it was in a vise..I felt like a bird with a knot in my throat. And I cried...And I cried. So many tears.

I remembered her when I was little..Her mind sharp. She was working in the garden. And I stood at the window and watched her. I loved her pink shirt and her blue shorts. She looked so much younger than her actual age.

And I loved her..I still love her. But things are different now. She cries to me. "I am losing my mind."

And I say, "No Mom you aren't." But I know she is..Sorrow is like this wind tunnel that blows over me 1,000 miles an hour.

I wake everyday and I pray for her..God please let her have peace now. Let her be happy. For she has never really had the chance to be very happy.

Melancholy has wiped me out today. It has a temporary hold for a while.

I am working on the house and trying not to think about it too much. Because tomorrow is a new day.

love Nita

Stevie Nicks - Bella Donna

Coming out of the darkness...Smiling softly

Laura Story - Blessings

I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure which is: Try to please everyone.

Herbert Bayard Swope

I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life
by conscious endeavor.

Thoreau

The more the marble wastes, the more the statue grows.

Michelangelo

Mirth is like
a flash of lighting,
that breaks through
a gloom of clouds,
and glitters for a moment;
cheerfulness keeps up
a kind of daylight in the mind,
and fills it with a steady
and perpetual serenity.

Joseph Addison

Light seeking light
doth light beguile.

Shakespeare

Neither a lofty degree
of intelligence
nor imagination nor both together
go to the making of genius.
Love, love, love,
that is the soul of genius.

Mozart

You see things;
and you say, "Why?"
But I dream things
and I say, "Why not?"

George Bernard Shaw

Just trust yourself,
then you will know
how to live.

Goethe

Action is the antidote
to despair.

Joan Baez

Melody Gardot - Love Me Like A River Does

I am going to start selling books for altered art within the next three weeks. And selling my jewelry. I have a lot of supplies. I have been scared to..But my stuff is good. Will keep you all posted. I am feeling more courageous. Thank you to whom ever prays me..I feel it.

love Nita

B.o.B - Nothin' On You [feat. Bruno Mars] (Video)

This song makes me happy..I feel better today. I feel more hopeful. A friend gave me some great ideas yesterday. And I am going to explore them. Started writing a plan out last night.

Love Nita