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Monday, December 31, 2012

Used to Love U-John Legend w/ lyrics

Monday, December 24, 2012

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Tony Robbins - Create a New Story

Meiko - How Lucky We Are



Have a good day everyone...

[MEIKO + Luka] Twin Colors/Futairo [English SUBS]



Were you there when He took the words from His mouth like scissors and sledge hammers and softness and light and created the world? I think we all were with Him as He planned..The great I Am..

I dream of Him...I love Him

More than anything..More than  anyone..Anyone

He is my Father

How wonderful is that for a bastard to have a Father who created the world? Because it says in His word..I am the Father to the Fatherless

Father when I come upon your shores..Please have sweet tea with me.....

By Nita Zimmerman- Skibinski


SASSY GAY FRIEND - Great Expectations



I was starting to become this way..Till I watched this video..lol


"If you would have been in the ladies room you would have pulled your pants up.."I laugh so hard every time I watch this.

flip it, tip it, sip it  --Meio

joan baez-prison trilogy (billy rose)



Billy Rose knew trouble like the sound of his own name

He said don't mess with me, just take me home...

This song influenced me greatly. I discovered it at 10. And listened to it everyday

Joan Baez...She is a woman of courage

And the song..My ..The sheer injustice done to our fellow men and women are the blight upon our nation.

Roberta Flack "The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face" (1969)

Damien Rice - Cold Water (Album O)

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Bat For Lashes - 03 - Moon and Moon (Two Suns)

The Eagles - Desperado

Howie Day - Collide



This is what I want you to know, love...

That for the time we have been together... I have never been madder at anybody in my life, like I have with you. That is always a mark of true love

You are laughing aren't you? Good

For the time with you..I hope you have  experienced more joy, pleasure,and  pain than with anyone ever before or ever again

Why pain? Because it teaches us who we are. It is the central ingredient for all growth

I hope you loved every picture that I took of you..And the kids

I hope you remember us all in the big goofy glasses...With one lens out. And How I got a picture of everyone in the house with them on

Even Elizabeth and Mike...

I hope you remember I loved you without prejudice..I loved you ..love you..With everything in me..

Please remember...

Nita Zimmerman- Skibinski









Rascal Flatts - Come Wake Me Up

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Emily and The Woods - Steal His Heart (Official Video)


lovely...lovely song..i am writing a post tonight for tomorrow..pray for me..it is brewing..like my coffee in my percolator

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Sandi Patty and Wayne Watson - Another Time Another Place

Tony Robbins: Why we do what we do

Priscilla Ahn - Dream (Official Video)


Another beautiful song...I send everyone hope today

[HD] Priscilla Ahn-Find My Way Back Home [Live Performance]


A lovely voice...

Love listens.
Love sees.
Love answers.
Love gives.
Love helps.
Love encourages.
Love meets needs.
Love draws close.
Love befriends.
Love cooperates.
Love enjoys.
Love respects.
Love desires.
Love accepts.
Love overlooks.
Love forgives.
Love is patient.
Love corrects.
Love warns.
Love guides.
Love protects.
Love serves.
Love shares.
Love sacrifices.
Love is generous.
Love is loyal.
Love is gracious.
Love smiles.
Love weeps.
Love comforts.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

The Ghost Of Tom Joad



Happy Thanksgiving everyone...

Saturday, November 17, 2012

T.I Feat Justin Timberlake - Dead And Gone Official Music Video + Lyrics

Pet Shop Boys - West End Girls

Eurythmics - Here Comes The Rain Again (Remastered)

Broken - Seether and Amy Lee (With lyrics)

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Birdy - Radio 1 Live Lounge - The A Team


a delicate rendition of Ed Sheeran'a song....The A Team

Birdy - Without A Word [Live]


just discovered this girl a couple of weeks ago..i love her

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Flobots - Handlebars (ALBUM/RADIO VERSION HQ)



I like music because songs tell a story. There are people like this...I don't understand why we can't have mercy for one another

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Bon Iver - Skinny Love



This is the original version. done by a Mr. Bon Iver. I heard it on an Indie station. And fell in love with it. I love his rawness and passion...The most

Birdy - Skinny Love [Official Music Video]

William Shatner - Common People


she just laughed...and said, you're so funny

Flight of the Conchords: Business Time


it makes me laugh

Friday, October 19, 2012

Alexi Murdoch - All My Days

Alexi Murdoch - Blue Mind

Ocean Breathes Salty - Sun Kil Moon


I appreciate every moment I have lived. I appreciate the good and bad that has happened to me.

I needed to be brought down by God more than a few times. But I thank Him for that. Because it humbled me and made me not be so judgmental. You know?

I love this song because it makes me reflect on my life. It calms me and soothes my heart. I think the world would be a better place if we did reflect more. And thought long and hard about actions before we take them.

Will this hurt anyone? If it would, don't do it. That is common sense. It is compassion.

Compassion for others helps us see their plight..It puts us in their shoes.

Have a good all...Nita

Sara Evans - A Little Bit Stronger

Friday, October 12, 2012

Joseph Arthur - In The Sun


this is a poem i wrote in @2010

If you read my words love, know, in your heart, that they were not meant to kill you

They were meant to wound you, so you can heal

You told me once that you wanted to be a better man
To touch the hand of God

And, love, no one can cut you...but me, to the depth you need

You told me things about myself that cut me wide open

Things I needed to hear, that no one else ever dared to say

I saw myself, for once, for who I was, through your eyes

The bad, beautiful, ugly, broken, tragic, tender, loving, messy, insecure girl who needed a father/figure lover

A girl who cried in your arms, because it was the first time I was shown true tenderness

In that moment, I would have died for you. I was your moth, and you love, were the heat

I felt the universe course through my heart, right then, and you were the best thing in it

You made me a room of my own...A room where I could be free, for a little while....

No one ever did that....for me

You let me tell you my secrets I had never told

You hurt me
You healed me

You gave me the courage to be a woman, not just a child

But she is still there, the child...

Love, take my words and let them comfort you in your hour of need

For, I bear no malice...
I only bear an unquenchable love for you....

And love does no harm

by nita barrow- zimmerman skibinski  @2010

George Michael - I Can't Make You Love Me


nope..i can't..i really can't..not unless it comes from your own heart

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Corinne Bailey Rae - Like A Star (New Version)


Just praying for my needs to be met today..I will be hopeful.
   I will

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Time After Time (Cyndi Lauper) - Allison Crowe live


I like this version best, really
have a good day all

Cyndi Lauper - Time After Time


ok..this too.."the computer question"..i use name identification  because of evil Robots  :) the kind, that try to give your site bugs. it is recommended. aye?

Mike & The Mechanics - The living Years


just listen...and i will too

The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald


great song

Monday, October 8, 2012

02 Seven years - Norah jones



A little girl with nothing wrong is all alone...Eyes wide open always hoping for the sun...

Monday, October 1, 2012

The Roots - Dear God 2.0 ft. Monsters Of Folk

Sufjan Stevens - That Was The Worst Christmas Ever!



I read a poster today..It said: "People will only treat you like you let them treat you."

It rattled me. I want to be treated with respect, dignity, and honored as a fellow human being. For us to talk without anyone getting angry.

I want respect for my boundaries.

If I tell you something bothers me. Why would you do the very act that bothers me? I wouldn't do that to you.

Today I am going to stick to my boundaries.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Thursday, September 27, 2012


Gary Jules - Wichita



I know this may be hard to believe, but when I was ten, my sister and I were hanging out with the local kids from our neighborhood in an abandoned building like most inquisitive children do, who are not being watched properly..

But this building had crushed glass all over the floor. All different colors and all different sizes. From quarter sized pieces, to  mere dust of glass, holding the bigger pieces, captive by the colors it cast upon the broken bits during morning and noon and evening light.

It was beautiful to see this iridescent glow upon the walls.  But the beauty of the light, laid bare the faces of my friends. Captivated by this Peter Pan moment. These children, this child,  looking for something better than a beating or a slap.

We knew that this was one of those rare moments in childhood that we could look back on in delight and amazement..Especially when I was dared to walk across the glass barefooted.

And I did.

I felt this peace, and I made my mind up I was not going to get cut. I imagined me walking across that glass in my mind, unscathed. But God is the one who really protected me. I know he protects fools and children, and I guess at that point in my life I was both.. But the kids were amazed and we still talk about it.

But that moment comes back to me, like silver linings on clouds ..When the sun's light just barely caresses the clouds and illuminates their beauty ...Like cotton candy on a Summer day ..Like watching boats on the lake, during the precious few times for adults, that are allowed for pleasure and not work.

That kind of moment...

Have a great day everyone...

Nita

written by Nita Zimmerman- Skibinski @  a true story


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Self-portrait...

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Ryan Adams - "When the Stars Go Blue"


Dancing where the stars go blue today....

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Powderfinger - Nobody sees



I saw the man standing on the medium. He had long dark hair, just messed up a bit. The look on his face, reached into my soul so deep it took my breath. I had no money with me..I wished at that moment I would have had some to help him.

Then at the store a mentally handicapped woman began to talk to me and some people began to snicker at her. I gave them, "You better shut your mouth or I am going to whip your ass look." And guess what they looked away. I am so mad at the insensitive society we have become.

People are made fun of daily. Children are bullied more and more at school.

They need to learn compassion and kindness how can we possibly exist much longer without it?

I wear dark sunglasses everyday because I can't stand to see the pain in everyone's eyes and I don't want them to see mine.

But I do look for opportunities to help the underdog...Because growing up I was the underdog. Not anymore.

  love Nita

Bonnie Raitt - I Can't Make You Love Me



And I leave you with a very favorite of mine.

Bon Iver - Skinny Love



I am going to do some fun things today...I will take pictures.
    xo Nita

Friday, September 21, 2012

Counting Crows - Holiday in Spain (to a sunrise)



Praying for miracles today...I need them..
   nita

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

B.o.B - Airplanes (Feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore)



I can use a wish right now.....Just one

STING - Little Wing



Just praying inwardly today that  I get answers for what I need to do to change to make life better..And yes this song is me.

  love Nita

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Into the Mystic - Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova


Sailing into the mystic...Reminds me of how I want to own, or rent, a houseboat and just go way out in a big lake and just be....Looking at the stars and smoking a cigarette. And thinking by God this is living.

love Nita

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Sia - Breathe Me


How do I get outside of myself? I need a car. I have 3 classes to finish to complete an associates in education. I wouldn't mind getting involved in social work. But my heart says..You are a writer Nita..Use your abilities to write yourself a new life. Leave me your opinion please..I need them.

   xo Nita

p.s Breathe me

Adam Lambert What Do You Want From Me FULL MV



A memory came to me yesterday..It was the way the wind smelled that brought it back. I remembered the apple orchard, and how we use to take the kids out there every year. We would get donuts and apples and cider. It was wonderful. It always seemed to be the perfect day when we went..

Pain washed over me in waves..I can't ever get my old life back. And I don't think I would want to. You find things out that make it impossible to ever want to go back.

But today I will cherish the good memories I had and be determined to make better ones..

  lover Nita

Friday, September 14, 2012

Ed Sheeran - The A Team Lyrics (On Screen)



Hello...I just got a new computer. Good to see people still care enough to visit me..It means more than you know. I love this song. It kinda reminds me of me..Except the whole pipe thing..I don't do that..I guess it reminds me cause I am kinda lost.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Crazy Beautiful-Lifehouse



How can I stand here with  you...And not be moved by you?

Saturday, July 7, 2012

08. Meet Me by the Water - Rachael Yamagata

Damien Rice - Cold Water (w/ Lisa)

Calvin Harris - Feel So Close



This is the original video...  :)   My favorite song right now..For this week

"Listen To Our Hearts" - Geoff Moore

Joseph Prince - Keep Your Eyes On Jesus - 10 Jun 2012

Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over Lyrics

Thomas Dybdahl - John Wayne live



Surviving meant being born over and over again.
             Erica Jong

Groove Armada - My Friend

Friday, July 6, 2012

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late



Say a prayer for me today please...Anyone who believes in prayer. I appreciate it so much.
  love Nita

Ryan Adams - Wonderwall



And all the roads we have to walk are winding..And all the lights that lead the way are blinding..

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Feist - Sea Lion Woman (Pitto Bootleg)



This is my song I dust to, and dance to, while dusting, while drinking coffee or tea^.^ Nita

Bent - Sing Me



I am decorating the inside of the pots, where my plants reside, with seashells...I fill them full of water so lilttle birds can get a drink and butterflies and fireflies. Doesn't every mermaid do that?

 ^.^ Nita

Jo Hamilton - There It Is - Music Video



When I need peace and perspective I listen to this song..."About ten times a day"..Smiling softly.
    Have a good day everyone. I am honing my writing skills as we speak.

      xo Nita

Friday, June 22, 2012

Jeffrey Gaines - In Your Eyes



My garden is growing to be a lovely peaceful place. When I am there... I feel free. I usually sing when I am watering my plants. And I hope that they feel the joy that I do. The Burr Oak I planted 18 years ago is enourmous. It's arms shade my whole house.

The firs and junipers that were once Christmas trees in our home are now a huge border in the backyard. How I feel surrounded by love..

My home has sheltered me from sorrow and  pain, and has given me a place to reside... To just be.

Have a good everyone. xo Nita

hands of kindness

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Ryan Adams Wonderwall (Lyrics in Description).


Things are better...They tend to even themselves out.  Things.

Working on planting a garden with the kids..That helps me very much to see beauty all around me..Doesn't it for anyone? When you see beauty it heals the heart.

  Nita

Friday, May 18, 2012

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Monday, May 7, 2012

Spunky

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One day the world be ready for me...Maybe it is already

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Ocean Breathes Salty - Sun Kil Moon


  The words to this song go with my post below...I hope you enjoy the song.
  love Nita

I Wish You Love - Rachael Yamagata



I began to think yesterday of all my blessings. And I found the direction I have been seeking.

"The literature of women's lives is a tradition of escapees, women who have lived to tell the tale...
They resist captivity. They get up and go. They seek better worlds."
                       Phillis Rose

My truth is this. I have been afraid to succeed. How would I handle it?  I have confidence now that I will handle it well.


"There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside you."
                  Zora Neale Hurston

I have many stories to tell, and I have many places I am going to be going to.  I will keep perspective this time.

"You need to claim the events of your life to make yourself yours. When you truly posses all you have been and done, which may take some time, you are fierce with reality."
                                                                              Florida Scott- Maxwell

"I have a sense of these buried lives striving to come through me to express themselves."
                                                               Marge Piercy

"The universe works with you and for you. It is not your enemy."
                                          David Spangler

"It is a funny thing about life. If you refuse to settle for anything less than the best, that's what it will give you."
                                               W. Somerset maugham

I believe this very day doors will be opened to me and my circumstances are about to be changed, dramatically for the best.

Have a good day all...
Nita

Friday, May 4, 2012

I am rare and beautiful...xo Nita

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Still my body aches- Thomas Dybdahl


A favorite song..I have this sadness today that I can't seem to shake. I have thought of so many scenerios today from the past..From the present.

Sometimes I feel like I am alone in the world.  Well. actually I feel alone most of the time. Even with a million people in the room.  Why?

Because I am alone most of the time. And when I am around other people, I wonder if they could understand me. Most people don't know how to take me...Or so it seems to me.

I wish I could be that social butterfly at times. But I am this girl who is just happy to be at home writing and taking care of my family.   But, then inside I really want to get out of here and see the world.

It has been so long since I could do anything fun. My house has become a self-imposed prison.

I would give anything just to hop in a car and drive to Fern Cliffe or Giant City Park...

I miss driving so much and being able to go for long rides and taking pictures...

I guess the sadness stems from feeling caged..

Even though I am caged..I will sing.

Gotta go...xo Nita

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Peter Gabriel - The Book of Love



Will I be found in the book of love?

I hope so..I hope so

Would you be the one writing my name down in it?

Will we remember Summer days in each other's arms? And nights looking at the stars?

I most want to remember that we took time out of each other's day, and just was, what we wanted to be

I want to remember the times we struggled so we are grateful for the times of prosperity

And when the moon is full I want to feel your arms around me...By the window as nightbirds sing

And I need you to see I am frail at times and don't be harsh with me..Heal me with love instead

I hope we are found in the book of love..You and me

by Nita Zimmerman- Skibinski @2012
I am at a loss right now at where to begin..I seek answers constantly.

I think when John died so much of me was lost. I never really wanted to admit that. And when I lost my best friend back in March 2010....It took a toll on me..Recovery...The song She Will Be Loved..I always felt it was written for me..I am that girl with the broken smile. I feel somewhat like a tornado that is full of talent..But I am not directed.  Direction is vitally important right now. I have been without a car almost for a year. My power bill is dragging me down. But I am going to make a confession right now.. I will succeed on on getting out of this quandry. I will get my writing published. I will get my bills under control. I will fight to be whole everyday of my life. I will think of others. I have lacked in that area at times. I will lose the rest of the weight I want to lose. I am almost there. I will be successful at whatever I put my hand to. Say a prayer for me, please? And I will pray for you all as well.
 Love Nita

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Maroon 5 She Will Be Loved lyrics


Look for the girl with the broken smile..Ask her if she'll stay awhile...

Monday, April 30, 2012

These flowers were from my garden 4 years ago..Guess what? My Dad tilled my garden spot up and I am getting ready to plant. I am going to have tomatoes, green beans, onions, herbs, and flowers. My peach trees actually are loaded with little peaches, isn't that great?
  Love Nita

The Killers - When You Were Young (Live Abbey Road 2007)


i love this song..

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Special Video of Joel Osteen & Sam Chelladurai - Listen To The Warnings ...


I needed to hear this..I hope it helps someone else too.
 Love Nita

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Today is clean up day here..I found this antique mirror on the side of the road! Isn't it awesome?
    I collect antique mirrors so I was very happy.
                ^.^ Nita

Monday, April 23, 2012

Gotye Somebody That I Used To Know ( official music video )


The original song without lyrics..And The weird freezing of Gotye's face is gone :)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I took this photo today..I love the color of this train car.
   Nita @2012

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Coldplay - Warning sign + lyrics


Come on in..I've got to tell you what a state I'm in...

Monday, April 9, 2012

Photos of the Prairies

This photo is from last October..Before I lost my camera..I love the clouds. It was such a Monet day..
 This 2nd photo I took a few days ago way out in the woods...The reeds remind me of Moses..The way his mother wove a basket to put him in the water so Pharohs daughter could find him..
 This 3rd photo is a reflecetion of the sky and trees in a mud puddle in my driveway..Isn't a miracle how reflections show another world..A door way to the unknown..An alternate universe maybe?  I am amazed by reflcctions..Especially water reflections.
 I was driving down the road..I was on Brookside street and the Lord spoke to my heart.."Look at those dandleions aren't they magnificent?" I thought they were and answered Him in my heart...That yes, I thought they were..But I kept driving. How typical of us all..When God shows us amazing things and wants us to ponder upon them we drive away, walk away, we don't think we have enough time to stop and observe. I went back later that day and took several photos of the dandleions..They turned out great.
 This 4th photo is a bridge way out in the country that is haunted..It really is. You can feel the spirits of unsettled souls there..I got chills taking this photo.
 The 5th photo is my Wisteria on my fence as you enter my gate to the side yard..I love it
 The 6th photo is blooming bushes against the azure blue sky..It was taken near the bridge..I feel in love with those bushes..I hope you all like the photos..

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Wild Violets growing in a ditch a block from my home..

 A house across the field..At sunsett
 Wild snow flowers growing at the base of an Oak tree at the park
love Nita

Friday, March 30, 2012

This is my family..Jim my husband..My step-children..The little girl is Carolyn, the 2nd oldest boy is James, the littlest one is Noah..And Elizabeth is holding Noah in one of the photos..I am in shadows, experimenting with light and shade.. :) Because I found my camera!! Hip, Hip, Hoorah!!
Love Nita







Monday, March 19, 2012

I have hid  with a painted face
I have hid in clean clothes
 But, I have been exposed all along but did not know

But today God's grace touches me
It makes me feel like I can face another day

It makes me feel like I am going to make it...
That I am going to break free from this pain

God's grace and peace have settled over me today like water walls

And I am grateful

Nita



Out of the Woods - Nickel Creek



This is my favorite kind of music

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Lady Antebellum - Hello World


Hello world...Sometimes I feel cold as steel...Broken like I'm  never gonna heal

ADELE - 'Make You Feel My Love'

Friday, March 2, 2012

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Coldplay - Violet Hill w/ Lyrics



Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.
Philo

Friday, February 3, 2012

Matt Maher - Hold us together with lyrics



I am will be my brother's keeper..So the whole world will know you are not alone

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Ice



I walked on the ice..The creek had been frozen for a week.

I was 12..I had long brown hair almost to my waist and I had on a beautiful brown fur parka that had buttons made of bone.

It was a magical day..The ice made everything feel surreal. I walked on the deepest part of the creek almost wishing it would break..That way if I died it would be such a tragedy. It would have been in the papers and my classmates would have mourned me. My Mom and sisters would throw themselves on my coffin and weep loudly inconsolably, almost dying from losing me.

The thoughts of a 12 year old are hard to understand at times.

My cheeks were on fire from the cold as I walked home.... I studied the snow..With huge icicles that hung off the houses. I suddenly felt quite sad..Time seemed to be going so fast. I had remembered when I was 5 . And thoughts of those times filled my head on my walk home ..I was mixed with happy thoughts and sad ones.

I reached home that evening and Mom had made beef stew. I remember looking at her and loving her so much at that moment..I ran up and hugged her and told her the food smelled so good. She said, "Well go eat silly."

And I did with eyes of a 40 year old instead of a 12 year old. Thanking God in my heart for the good times.

Nita

Monday, January 30, 2012

Big Red



Today we had to have our dog put down. He was such a good dog.

How, he was that good, I will never know. When he came here 4 years ago he had been beaten and tortured and had his throat cut. Me and my Dad nursed him back to health.

I hate it that the good things in the world suffer more than the bad things. But who am I to question God?

Big Red always had these sad, sad eyes..You could see his soul through them, and all that was there, was love.

He was suffering though and it needed to be done. It was the humane thing to do.

Sometimes we need to learn to let go...

nita

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Donny Hathaway - A Song For You


we were alone and i was singing this song for you

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Lissie - Everywhere I Go



LIFE TEACHES US TO BE LESS HARSH WITH OURSELVES AND WITH OTHERS.
Goethe

Friday, January 20, 2012

Sia - Breathe Me



this is all i have today...that and my faith.
smiling softly and sadly

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I never knew you could see so much pain in my eyes until I took this photo..It was a year and a half after his death. I had stayed up all night. Back then I was lucky if I got 2 hours sleep a night. I was a ghost in my house..Dying slowly from grief. It took so long to get to where I am now. Sometimes it is imperative to look back and see your progress.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Garbage - Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses (U2 Cover)



just listen to the poetry of these lyrics....just listen

Damien Rice - Rootless Tree (Live from Abbey Road)



{This post is from a diary I started a year ago in February.. Actually, February 12, 2011. One day before I started going out with Jim.}

This song has one curse word in it..And I apologize for that but it is needed. The song..that is.


I cried. The sobs wracked my frame. I had been riding my exercise bike and praying.

It came over me in waves. Oceans of tears..I cried so much, my shirt was wet down the whole front.

The past 3 years and 7 months have been Hell.

With John dying, my surgery, Elizabeth's health. And so much more. I can't even speak of how much more. It hurts too much.

I felt in my heart, God say, " I understand Everything you have done and why you have done it."

The past year I have been on auto-pilot. The walking dead.

Numb

Numb

Numb

Lost inside myself so deep that I didn't know if I could make it out.

What can I say about suffering? It is intense. Like Jack Nicholson.

Some days I feel I can barely breath.

How do I get through it?

I wake up. I get dressed. Take my medicine. Drink some tea.

"Play some music."

Pray...That God will help me get through another day. Pray I get my needs taken care of.

And I put on the mask that every thing's ok.

When you suffer
it scares people..for you.

They can't fathom why it is happening.

I've learned this in suffering.

"God is good...All the time."

He has helped me through nights I spent on the floor crying myself to sleep..Those nights I wanted to die.

I wanted to die because of the suffering.

There were days I drove for hours..Trying not to think. Trying to breath.

There is a song by Damien Rice called, Rootless Tree. There is one line that describes me, how I feel.

"We do what we need to be free and this leans on me like a rootless tree."

I have prayed for answers. I have begged God to show me the way, everyday..

So I just take it a step at a time
a second at a time.

And I feel like I am healing
Slowly...

NBZ February, 12, 2011

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Busted Heart - For king & Country



I will give God glory in my suffering. I will give Him honor in my hunger. I will hold onto Him like a child holds onto their Mother's leg.

I pray He makes me as close to Him as a man's belt upon his waist...

He has never left me, He has never forsaken me.

He has always watched out for me ..Even in my darkest moments when I laid drunk upon the floor. Drugged out and desperate. He made me straight. He took my addictions away.

He saved my life so many times..I can't count them all.

And I have at times been faithless. Ungrateful for His tender mercies.

I have been a mess. A fool. Yet, He loves me.

And that, is the most awesome gift I have ever received.

An unfailing love, and a love that does not stop.

Even if, we have never had anyone be faithful to us in our lives. He is faithful.

And I praise Him today ....And I love Him.

More than anything...Or anyone.

Nita Zimmerman- Skibinski

Friday, January 13, 2012

Sun Kil Moon - Lost Verses



There is no quiet place in your cities, no place to hear the leaves of Spring or the rustle of insects wings...

The Indians prefer the soft sound of the wind darting over the face of the pond, the smell of the wind itself cleansed by a midday rain, or scented with pinon, pine.

The air is precious to the red man, for all things share the same breath-the animals, the trees, the man.
Like a man who has been dying for many days, a man in your city is numb to the stench.

Chief Seattle
1790-1866

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Monday, January 9, 2012

Al Green - Lay it Down



You must do the thing you think you cannot do.

Eleanor Roosevelt

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Ray Lamontagne - Can I stay


just sharing good music today..it is all i have...love nita

John Legend- I Love, You Love


hearts break so easy...

Raphael Saadiq ft. Joss Stone - Just One Kiss



Night  in africa walks
into day as quickly
as a moth is extinguished
by its desire for flame

the clouds in the caribbean carry
night like a young man
with a proud erection dripping
black dots across the blue sky
the wind its mistress of the sun howls
her displeasure at the involuntary
fertilization

but nights are white
in new york
the shrouds of displeasure
mask our fear of facing
ourselves between the lonely
sheets

by Nikki Giovanni

Raphael Saadiq - Sometimes


let me tell you about my day...it started about 7:00

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Sara Smile - The Bird and The Bee



I was sweeping the floor yesterday feeling sad..When I found a magnet under the table.

I bent down and picked up and read: Only those who risk going too far
Will ever know how far to go
That spoke to me...

How many times do we stay in our safe little corner of the world without ever risking anything?

When we know we have the capabilities to do anything, if we believe we can.

We stay where we are out of fear of failing..Out of insecurity..

I won't be afraid this year! I will go too far. I will take risks.

I will succeed in the goals I have set. And I believe anyone who is reading this will too. I really do.
With God's help we can do anything.

Nita

Monday, January 2, 2012

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks



i know it is late..but dance! i command you. ha ha
love nita

Fleet Foxes - Tiger Mountain Peasant Song (Cover)


A little gift from me....

Wrote a post but accidentally deleted it. Grr. But I must need to work on it.
So enjoy the song..It is amazing ..Their harmony is perfect.

love Nita

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Pick out one person a day to encourage.


Please pray for the protection of Israel.
And for the Jewish people who live there. May God give them the strength they need to defeat their enemies.
“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.”
—G.K. Chesterton (1874-1936); writer, critic
"There will come
a time
when you believe
everything is finished.
That will be the beginning."
Louis L'Amour
(1908-1988)

"Wisdom is knowing what to do next;
virtue is doing it."
David Star
(1851-1931)
exert from
The Philosophy of Despair
It is never too late to be who you might have been.
George Eliot
Friendship is a sheltering tree.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
~Wishes are free~
So why not make one?
Psalm 138:7

Though I am surrounded by troubles, my God will preserve me against the anger of my enemies. He will clench His fist against my angry enemies! His Power will save me. The Lord will work out His plans for my life- for His faithful love endures forever.

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