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The soul always speaks, and sometimes it speaks the loudest when we live only half of a life, when we stay on the surface.

If we don't listen to the voice of the soul, it sings a stranger tune. If we don't go looking for what lies beneath.

from the book, Broken Open: How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow by Elizabeth Lesser

I am really enjoying the journaling it has been freeing..

Please check out Misty's site: There is a list of all the participants as well. http://mistymawn.typepad.com/my_weblog/

Tonight's song, Father of Mine by Everclear

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I have joined the everyday January Art Journaling that Misty Mawn is hosting, her link is http://mistymawn.typepad.com/my_weblog/ there is a list of all the other participants on her site. And you can join too.

This is my page for January 1 . I will download the picture for today a little later.

This picture shows this woman's wounds on the outside of herself. Most of us hide our pain on the inside.. I almost didn't use this picture I made because it is so raw. But life isn't always perfect. I know people who cut themselves so they can feel alive. They describe it as, "Being able to feel something." I don't condone doing that. But I do understand it.

We can learn much from the pain we carry around. It can either help us or kill us. We have to choose. My challenge for myself this month is to grow further than I ever have.

I hope you get a chance to look at Misty's site she has done some incredible work. And the other participants work is amazing.

xoxo Nita

today's song, Name by the Goo Goo Dolls
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i won't tell your name...

It always seems to come back to him. John that is..This last night of 2008, I have remembered every past New Years Eve that we spent together in the last 22 years.

Except he is missing this one. The first one we have not been together. The very last year he lived..

We were going through a rough patch a few years ago, and I was playing this song one day while I was taking a shower. I had been crying, silent tears falling like the water flowing over me. He came in and peeked around the shower curtain and looked at me with a sad face and said, "But I do love you."

He then proceeded to climb in the shower with me fully clothed and gave me a most memorable kiss. We make mistakes. He made mistakes, I made mistakes. But we loved each other. I thought about leaving many times. But I never could. I loved him too much.

Don't ever let anyone interfere with your relationship with the one you love. Not your family, your best friend, your kids, whoever. If you love them and they love you that is all that matters.

My husband's family never liked me. I felt like I was at the Spanish Inquisition every time I was with them. They liked asking me personal questions about my family my dog. Yadda yadda.


These are the lessons I have learned from those experiences.

1. It does no good to bear your soul to some people, because all they will do is use it against you. The most private thoughts and hurts you have shared becomes their favorite ammunition against you. Be selective with whom you share your soul with.

2.After you have learned that they shared your information with others. Move on. And from this moment forward realize you don't have to answer every question that is being asked of you, by anyone.

If someone asks you a question that you don't want to answer, just reply. "Is that really any of your business?" And smile really big and give them a big kiss on the cheek. That really disarms them!

3. Turn the beat around. Ask them questions about their personal life. So how much money do you make? When they start squirming maybe they will realize how you feel.

4. Finally, if it keeps up, leave. Excuse yourself by telling them you have an early flight lesson. That will leave them with more questions. Where did you get the money for that? Just smile. And get out of there as fast as you can.


I am sending you all wonderful wishes for the New Year. I hope that this year finds you accomplishing your greatest dreams. And I pray that the Lord blesses you with health and happiness and most of all peace of mind.

xoxo Nita

The song is by Ari Hest and he is performing a great rendition of, I Can't Make You Love Me.

This song is by Duffy and it is called Mercy..Besides her being unbelievably beautiful her voice is amazing.

When I was a kid music and dancing was everything. It is all we thought about. My little sister and I made up dances that we and our friends would do. We danced while we cleaned the house, we danced doing dishes. We threw each other around the room until we were dizzy. I miss that..

One time we went out in the country for a drive with one of our friends from school. He had this old red Cadillac and we all thought it was the bomb..

And he had this rocking stereo. Well he decides to pull over on the side of the road, and we all got out of the car and started dancing. I remember a farmer out in the field looking at us like we were crazy. We just laughed. Youth..

But this song reminds me of that day..

I hope you have to time to listen to it.

xoxo Nita