Saturday, December 10, 2011

Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'Ole

Mom is worse everyday..Dementia started setting in a few years ago. She is not diagnosed, but Grandma had it, and she has begun to act just like her.

My world is sad so often because of her gradual decline. She cussed me out today..This morning..And my heart felt like it was in a vise..I felt like a bird with a knot in my throat. And I cried...And I cried. So many tears.

I remembered her when I was little..Her mind sharp. She was working in the garden. And I stood at the window and watched her. I loved her pink shirt and her blue shorts. She looked so much younger than her actual age.

And I loved her..I still love her. But things are different now. She cries to me. "I am losing my mind."

And I say, "No Mom you aren't." But I know she is..Sorrow is like this wind tunnel that blows over me 1,000 miles an hour.

I wake everyday and I pray for her..God please let her have peace now. Let her be happy. For she has never really had the chance to be very happy.

Melancholy has wiped me out today. It has a temporary hold for a while.

I am working on the house and trying not to think about it too much. Because tomorrow is a new day.

love Nita

Friday, December 9, 2011

Stevie Nicks - Bella Donna

Coming out of the darkness...Smiling softly

Laura Story - Blessings

I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure which is: Try to please everyone.

Herbert Bayard Swope

I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life
by conscious endeavor.


The more the marble wastes, the more the statue grows.


Mirth is like
a flash of lighting,
that breaks through
a gloom of clouds,
and glitters for a moment;
cheerfulness keeps up
a kind of daylight in the mind,
and fills it with a steady
and perpetual serenity.

Joseph Addison

Light seeking light
doth light beguile.


Neither a lofty degree
of intelligence
nor imagination nor both together
go to the making of genius.
Love, love, love,
that is the soul of genius.


You see things;
and you say, "Why?"
But I dream things
and I say, "Why not?"

George Bernard Shaw

Just trust yourself,
then you will know
how to live.


Action is the antidote
to despair.

Joan Baez

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Melody Gardot - Love Me Like A River Does

I am going to start selling books for altered art within the next three weeks. And selling my jewelry. I have a lot of supplies. I have been scared to..But my stuff is good. Will keep you all posted. I am feeling more courageous. Thank you to whom ever prays me..I feel it.

love Nita

B.o.B - Nothin' On You [feat. Bruno Mars] (Video)

This song makes me happy..I feel better today. I feel more hopeful. A friend gave me some great ideas yesterday. And I am going to explore them. Started writing a plan out last night.

Love Nita

Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine

I love, love, love this song...It makes me feel what it is like falling in love..again

Mixed Media with Suzi Blu: Butterfly


Mixed Media with Suzi Blu

Suzi Blu is a creative genius...And funny

STEVIE NICKS Has anyone ever written LIVE at RED ROCKS

And the rain falls down and there is no pain and no sound...

Monday, December 5, 2011

Visual Journalism 101 Tutorial

Beth Orton

Woke up crying..

Things are so tough. I have no furnace..Just 2 space heaters..Applied for one. Pray for me that I get one. It is fixing to turn really cold.

On a bright note my orchard bloomed and it is beautiful..It has made my whole week. When I walk past it I feel so happy and it makes me feel less chilled. Smiling softly and sadly.

Love Nita

P.s If anyone is going through a rough time right now like me..Don't give up..Things will be brighter..Someday

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Donny Hathaway - A Song For You

Just listening to this as I clean..Wouldn't it be wonderful if someone sang this to you..Just you?

Ben Harper - In Your Eyes

I remember there were days I was so lonely I tied notes to tumbleweeds and sent them off on the wind. Like Evie in Conagher ..The book by Louis la'More.

Some days. even now I feel that way. I feel alone.

I feel as if I am choking on the things I can't seem to change, and I lay prostrate on the floor and beg God not to leave me...I pray He helps me to have the strength I need to change. I want to so bad..To change.

I have lost my words lately..My ability to write stories. And I grieve for that.

And I grieve over this computer..I can't leave comments on any one's site. And I feel as I am always in a one sided conversation.

And often I feel so weak. I am ashamed to admit that. And I feel like the worst sinner in the world. I cuss and smoke cigarettes and tell dirty jokes sometimes.

Gotta clean the house. I don't know if anyone is reading this..But if you are thanks.

love Nita

Jolie Holland - Mexican Blue (fan video)

If I could go anywhere today..
It would be with you

I would happily clean the toilet with you. Watch boring football games..And soak in the warmth of you.Thank God you can't stand sports.

I would walk to a neighboring state with you and trade you shoes if yours got wet

My coat would reside with you if you got cold

And if you cried..I would cry too

Watching you sleep with your hand curled into a small fist makes my heart beat with love

And if your ship went down in the middle of the ocean and we had no lifeboat I would spend my time listening to whatever you had to say

And when the waves took us over I would whisper in your ear

I love You

Nita- Barrow Zimmerman Skibinski
@December 4, 2011

Me singing River, by Joni Mitchell

I woke to the smell of coffee and tangerines..And this song was playing in my head. It is almost Christmas. And the grey skies swirl about me like ghosts with their sheer sadness.

Today I will only allow myself a small time to grieve for what I can't change. And then I will change what I can.

Even though it is grey and and raining I will make the house bright with lights..Soft lights.

And I will make something good to eat. Like toast with plum jelly.

love Nita

About Me

My photo
I love beauty, whether it is in nature, literature or art. And I love music... My day feels incomplete if I haven't had a chance to listen to some good music.. I also love beautiful souls, and kind hearts.


Copyright@ 2007- 2013 by Nita Barrow- Zimmerman
all rights reserved. Please do not use my original art, photos, or reprint my writing without asking me for permission. Thank You...

Pick out one person a day to encourage.

Please pray for the protection of Israel.
And for the Jewish people who live there. May God give them the strength they need to defeat their enemies.
“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.”
—G.K. Chesterton (1874-1936); writer, critic
"There will come
a time
when you believe
everything is finished.
That will be the beginning."
Louis L'Amour

"Wisdom is knowing what to do next;
virtue is doing it."
David Star
exert from
The Philosophy of Despair
It is never too late to be who you might have been.
George Eliot
Friendship is a sheltering tree.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
~Wishes are free~
So why not make one?
Psalm 138:7

Though I am surrounded by troubles, my God will preserve me against the anger of my enemies. He will clench His fist against my angry enemies! His Power will save me. The Lord will work out His plans for my life- for His faithful love endures forever.

Blog Archive

If you haven't any charity in your heart, you have the worst kind of heart trouble.
Bob Hope

How to Build a Fairy House

How to Build a Fairy House

Minature Quilt

Janet Bolton

Janet Bolton
Quilt and Textile Artist

Miniature Quilt

Miniature Quilt

Miniature Quilt

FEEDJIT Live Traffic Feed