I Don't Know How to Let You Go....

What ravages of spirit conjure this tempestuous rage...



Fate has lead me through it... You do what you have to do.

But I have a sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go....

I try to escape this desire... The yearning to be near you...I do what I have to do.

I don't know how to let you go...
Every moment marked with apparitions of your soul... I'm ever swiftly moving trying to escape this desire...this yearning to be near you...I do what I have to do.

But I have a sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go..

A glowing ember burning hot burning slow...
Deep within me I'm shaken by the violence of existing only for you...

Sarah McLaughlin


This is how I feel about John... Today is rough. Thoughts of him have just been running through my mind all day.

Thoughts of him come to me at the worst possible times. Driving down the street, while at the store, doing the dishes, and mopping the floors.

The loneliest part of the day is every hour without him....

Knowing he will not be here again is a burden almost too great to bear.

But he is gone and I am here...

Days seem to be getting easier than I have the rug pulled out from beneath me. Just little things that seem to haunt me. Finding a shirt of his in my closet. Finding notes he wrote and hid in the house for me to find...

~Nita~

John loved Snowball bushes... He would have loved this one.

Today's song, Do What You Have to Do by Sarah McLaughlin

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Photo Challenge....

I went back and read some more about the photo challenge.. It was supposed to be shiny things, sorry. Silly me. I found this picture I took a few months ago. I had borrowed my Dad's marble collection to do this shot. I then filled the red tin heart with sequins... I hope you like it.

Beautiful Donna at Made in Heaven is hosting a photo challenge today please check out the other participants. I forgot to write this last night!

I can't seem to get her link to work on my post but her site is on my favorites.

Why do we love certain houses, and why do they seem to love us?

It is the warmth of our individual hearts reflected in our surroundings.

-T.H. RobsJohn-Gibbins

The gazing ball and ivy photo I took in my Mother's yard. The ivy was a present from my sister and I many years ago. It was a small piece that Mom planted on a Red Bud tree stump. It has flourished.

The Gnome and the flowers are in my front yard. Elizabeth got the Gnome for me a few weeks ago. I love it...

I captured the photo of the Mourning Dove in my front yard. She let me get within a foot of her. I just adore her sweet little face...

~Nita~

Tonight's song, New Soul

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I took these photos yesterday. It was a rainy dreary day and I asked Elizabeth if she would blow some bubbles for me from this huge bubble container she had gotten as a gag gift from her boss. She said sure. So we went out in the driveway and she blew bubbles and I am snapped photos. It was fun.. The beauty of the bubbles amazes me. I love to see the different colors that each one has. Elizabeth had a good time blowing them. It reminded us of all the times I spent on the porch with the kids when they were little blowing bubbles with them.

It isn't the big things that kids or people remember. We remember moments not days.

It the silly fun times we take out of our dreary days that remain.
I have a couple of quotes I want to share with you.


The ordinary acts we practice everyday at home are of more importance to the soul than their Simplicity might suggest. Thomas Moore
Irish Poet {1779-1852}

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless." Mother Teresa


A gentle word, Like Summer rain, may soothe some heart and banish pain. What joy or sadness often springs from just the simple little things. Willa Hoey

I carry this card in my pocket everywhere.

Prayer for Peace

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace

Where there is hatred...let me sow love

Where there is injury...pardon

Where there is doubt...faith

Where there is despair...hope

Where there is darkness...light

Where there is sadness...joy

Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek

to be consoled....as to console,

to be understood....as to understand

to be loved...as to love,

for

it is in giving....that we receive

it is in pardoning, that we are pardoned

it is in dying....that we are born to eternal life.

I say a little prayer for all of you tonight that no matter what you are going through that God will help you.

Sending love to all....

~ Nita~

I saw the Red Bud tree in the park as I drove past to go to my favorite spot to bird watch. I looked at it and was amazed at its beauty .

I had drove past that tree many times over the years, never really looking at it thoroughly. But the other day I stopped to look at it.


A huge limb was broken off . And it had a crack that ran down the side of it.

At the base of the trunk it had a huge hollow spot with a hole in it. You could see through the hole to the other side.



Yet, the tree was blooming.

She was broken, cracked and even hollow. Yet she was alive and was blooming.

My heart leaped at that.

She was living...
She was blooming....


~ Nita~

Tonight's song, When I get Where I'm Goin

by Brad Paisley

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Sending you all love...

If you have time please listen...