"We can't let fear steal our joy"

I was talking to Elizabeth last night and she asked me, " Mommie What if it is cancer?" She tends to call me Mommie when she is frightened. My little girl..

I put my arms around her and let her cry. I said, " We will deal with it one step at a time. But you can't let fear rule your every waking moment and steal your joy."

She said that was true and she would try to trust God that everything will be alright. I will also trust God that everything will be alright. I had to think and pray about my feelings of being overwhelmed with sorrow. With my feelings of fear of what could be wrong.

I have to trust God in this situation. I have to believe for the best.

Yesterday and today I got all of the packages out to my dear friends who won necklaces and bracelets. I also got a few surprise packages out to some dear friends.

I made a necklace that promises of Spring..That goes to a friend who needs it. I made a bracelet that reminds me of the ocean on a warm Summer day. That goes to a friend who needs that promise of new days and new dreams.

When I focus on creating it helps take my mind off what is going on. I made Elizabeth a bracelet with stars on it. A lucky bracelet..It has silver seed beads and it looks like the stars are floating on it.

I send everyone love today..and hope.

xoxo Nita

I am really mad today. John is not here to help us. We need him here. He would know what to say and what to do. We kept each other strong in trials. I feel ripped off today! The anger just makes me feel better.

I am sorry to be a downer lately. It is just so many things at once to absorb.

Elizabeth had more tests yesterday. They took 11 little bottles of her blood to run more tests.

She has to have another Cat Scan next week. We will find something out next week.

I am asking for everyone to please continue praying for her. She is scared.

This song by Neil Young was always one of mine and John's favorite's. It comforts me for some reason. Maybe because I feel helpless right now. I am just at a loss.

Nita