Mosaic Material...

Blogger would only let me upload this many images. I am so darn mad .

I had many more pictures I wanted to upload. These are some of the plates Mom gave me recently for my Mosaics. I love the patina of these.

And the roses..

I made a bracelet tonight for Elizabeth and I will try to get those photos on, along with the some of my other treasures I have received lately by tomorrow.

I enjoyed making the bracelet. I had a friend send me some money to use for whatever I wanted to. So I bought beads and a kit for making jewelry.

We have a really nice bead store here that specializes in jewelry making.

I went in yesterday and a nice lady taught me how to put the lobster clasp on the bracelet and the ring that you fasten it to.

I love taking the beads and arranging them until something beautiful appears. They have these little prayer boxes that you put a prayer in and leave it. It is a charm you can put on your bracelet.

I am just trying to keep my mind busy. I wake up thinking of John and go to bed thinking of him. Tonight we went to Mom's and watched Flicka

with her. I was OK until the end of the movie and that song Tim McGraw sings came on. My Little Girl. I cried so hard. It made me think of him so much. It just feels like my heart is breaking.

John use to cry when he heard that song. He always called Elizabeth his baby girl. He said he would always see her as his baby, like I do.

I miss talking to him so much. I miss his advice. So many things haunt me. How I wish I could go back in time and not let him leave for work that day. But we can't go back .

~nita~

Song, My Little Girl by Tim McGraw

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Ice Storm...

{Click on pictures for better view} These 2 pictures look like one picture but they aren't.

I was going to post pictures of some old plates my Mom gave me for some Mosaic work I plan on doing , and some old pieces of broken costume jewelry I have received lately to re-make into jewelry. But I had to post these pictures of the ice storm. This is what it looked like this morning. But astonishingly it was completely melted by this afternoon. I wanted to take pictures of the after effects of the storm this afternoon, but had to do errands. We had Ameren trucks everywhere cutting trees down.

This first picture is Mom's front yard.

The second Crows and Starlings. I thought it was funny the way they were situated. It almost looks like this Crow is bawling the Starlings out for being in the feeder the same time as him. The other Crow is turned away like he is embarrassed at the rude behavior of his cohort. Me and Elizabeth laughed at this scene.

I got the female Cardinal and the male Cardinal almost in the same area. I loved the way I got her with her wing open.
This is the limb that almost did me in. Grrr.

I thought the buds on the frozen limb were pretty, and I liked the way it looked.

I love the Crow's yellow eyes.

John made the bottom of the bird feeder out of a cedar tree, and the top out of an old plastic bucket.

Thought for day:

Learning to live in

the present moment

is part of

the path of joy.

Sarah Ban Breathnach

Today's song, The Circle Game by Joni Mitchell

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This song has special meaning to me. It was one of my brother's favorite songs and mine as well.

It talks about the truly important things in life. If you have time please listen to it. She is one of my all time favorite singers. I love her voice because it is not perfect, and I love her spirit. She just seems like an innocent soul.

We are having a major ice and snow storm here in the Midwest. A huge limb off my Maple tree fell right after I went back inside from throwing some stale crackers out for the birds this morning.
I had been standing right where the limb fell. Isn't God good?
My head could have been bashed in, but instead he protected me.

I had to take Elizabeth to work in this mess so I went by the Dollar store while I was out. I got some Baby Breath seeds for the memorial garden for John. I also got an angel that has the Scripture: Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. It is on a tablet with the angel above it.
I need to take some pictures and just post what I got because it is really neat.

I hope we don't lose our power today but it is a real possibility. It is one of the worst storms I have seen around here for awhile. It was just 70 degrees here a few days ago and now this.

I want to thank everyone who has left comments and e-mailed me. It means alot. love Nita

Song, Blackbird by the Beatles
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I woke up crying today. I had another dream of John and did not want to wake up. It was so beautiful. We were in our yard but different, you know what I mean? Like how how our minds change things to be more how we want it, instead of how it really is.

It was our yard but a bigger yard. I actually have a Wisteria on the fence and it covers an archway in the side yard. But it has never bloomed. I have coaxed it for years to bloom, but with no luck.

In my dream I was out watering the plants and when I went to water the Wisteria it was covered in blooms. I yelled," John come outside and look at this." He came running out and said, "Wow! That is so beautiful, see I told you it would bloom someday."
Then he hugged me and told me he loved me. I asked him how he knew it would bloom seeing that it never had before. He said, " You just have to have faith."
I guess that is one reason I hate waking up. Because I dream of him so much. I fight daily to do the things I have to do.

Today when I went outside to walk the dogs it was Springlike. It must be 70 degrees. I immediately thought that if John was here we would go for a walk. He and I walked almost everyday when the weather started to be good outside. I enjoyed just talking to him when we walked.

The thing I miss the most about him was that he was the one I talked to about my Mom, sisters, kids and he would give me his opinion to what I should do with a certain situation. He is not here to do that anymore. I have lost my confidant.

Maybe it hurts more now than ever because of Spring... I don't know.

All I can do is trust God to help me. To have faith. Like John said to have in my dream..

~Nita~
Today's song, Does Anybody Hear Her by Casting Crowns
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