Saturday, January 21, 2012

Joy Harjo A Poem to Get Rid of Fear

Zig Ziglar - Attitude Makes All The Difference

Friday, January 20, 2012

Sia - Breathe Me

this is all i have today...that and my faith.
smiling softly and sadly

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I never knew you could see so much pain in my eyes until I took this photo..It was a year and a half after his death. I had stayed up all night. Back then I was lucky if I got 2 hours sleep a night. I was a ghost in my house..Dying slowly from grief. It took so long to get to where I am now. Sometimes it is imperative to look back and see your progress.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Garbage - Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses (U2 Cover)

just listen to the poetry of these lyrics....just listen

Damien Rice - Rootless Tree (Live from Abbey Road)

{This post is from a diary I started a year ago in February.. Actually, February 12, 2011. One day before I started going out with Jim.}

This song has one curse word in it..And I apologize for that but it is needed. The song..that is.

I cried. The sobs wracked my frame. I had been riding my exercise bike and praying.

It came over me in waves. Oceans of tears..I cried so much, my shirt was wet down the whole front.

The past 3 years and 7 months have been Hell.

With John dying, my surgery, Elizabeth's health. And so much more. I can't even speak of how much more. It hurts too much.

I felt in my heart, God say, " I understand Everything you have done and why you have done it."

The past year I have been on auto-pilot. The walking dead.




Lost inside myself so deep that I didn't know if I could make it out.

What can I say about suffering? It is intense. Like Jack Nicholson.

Some days I feel I can barely breath.

How do I get through it?

I wake up. I get dressed. Take my medicine. Drink some tea.

"Play some music."

Pray...That God will help me get through another day. Pray I get my needs taken care of.

And I put on the mask that every thing's ok.

When you suffer
it scares people..for you.

They can't fathom why it is happening.

I've learned this in suffering.

"God is good...All the time."

He has helped me through nights I spent on the floor crying myself to sleep..Those nights I wanted to die.

I wanted to die because of the suffering.

There were days I drove for hours..Trying not to think. Trying to breath.

There is a song by Damien Rice called, Rootless Tree. There is one line that describes me, how I feel.

"We do what we need to be free and this leans on me like a rootless tree."

I have prayed for answers. I have begged God to show me the way, everyday..

So I just take it a step at a time
a second at a time.

And I feel like I am healing

NBZ February, 12, 2011

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I love beauty, whether it is in nature, literature or art. And I love music... My day feels incomplete if I haven't had a chance to listen to some good music.. I also love beautiful souls, and kind hearts.


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Pick out one person a day to encourage.

Please pray for the protection of Israel.
And for the Jewish people who live there. May God give them the strength they need to defeat their enemies.
“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.”
—G.K. Chesterton (1874-1936); writer, critic
"There will come
a time
when you believe
everything is finished.
That will be the beginning."
Louis L'Amour

"Wisdom is knowing what to do next;
virtue is doing it."
David Star
exert from
The Philosophy of Despair
It is never too late to be who you might have been.
George Eliot
Friendship is a sheltering tree.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
~Wishes are free~
So why not make one?
Psalm 138:7

Though I am surrounded by troubles, my God will preserve me against the anger of my enemies. He will clench His fist against my angry enemies! His Power will save me. The Lord will work out His plans for my life- for His faithful love endures forever.

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