It Has Been One Year Since John's Accident on August the 15 th...

I was cleaning out the laundry room and found one of his t-shirts under the rocking chair. It hadn't been washed..I held it to me and breathed him in. I don't know how it could have been there for a whole year and I didn't see it. It was a blessing. It made me want to see him so bad..His scent made me feel his presence. I couldn't stop crying for a long time. I slept with his shirt beside me last night..

How can life change so fast?

I miss his stories, his friendship, his love..I miss him.


If I have not visited lately I am sorry. It has been a hard time these last few weeks because of the anniversary of the accident. I will try to get around this coming week.

Tonight's songs, Who Knew by Pink
1st video, 1st clip
When Your Gone by Avril Lavigne
2nd video, 4th clip
if you have a chance to listen to these please do...they both remind me of John.

The Redemption of Ruby Shane..(part 8)

I swung the bat and it made a sickening crunch as it connected with Daddy's skull. He slumped to the floor on his knees and then fell over on his back. A pool of maroon blood immediately poured from the back of his head making a strange halo around him.

I hadn't meant to kill him. But I knew I had. I had just wanted him to stop beating Momma. I just wanted to knock him out.

I feel to my knees and my hands shook so bad that I dropped the bat and started sobbing.

Momma scrambled to Daddy's side. She had blood streaming from her broken nose, and had an old dishtowel pressed to it to help stop the blood flow but it wasn't helping much.

He had found the material in the attic and accused her of wasting the money she made. He began by slapping her and it progressed into punching. I had come home in the midst of seeing him beating her.

She put her finger under his nose to see if he was still breathing. She then felt for a pulse in his neck after she couldn't find a even a whisper of a breath.

"Oh God Ruby he is dead!" Momma stifled a scream and instead whispered it in fearful dread.

"What are we going to do Momma? They will arrest me." I still couldn't get off my knees, and I couldn't quit shaking.


Daddy had a look on his face I had never seen before. A look of peace. And it made me cry even harder.

"Ruby I will tell them it was self defense they won't take you if they know it was self defense." Momma believed what she said, she really did, but I knew better. I knew they might take me.

written by Nita Barrow- Zimmerman

to be continued August 13th...

Jack Johnson...

I discovered a fabulous singer this weekend on the radio. Jack Johnson.. You may have already heard of him, but he is new to me.
I have two of my favorite songs off the CD on the video bar to the right. I ran out and bought the CD as soon as I heard that one song. (Enemy)
i hope you like him..

Don't forget The Redemption of Ruby Shane continues tomorrow on the 11th. I will post it by tomorrow evening.
~Nita~

P.s. sorry i have not gotten back to anyone..i have been busy all weekend. I will be by to visit everyone this week. xoxo