{This is a picture of John and Coco}
Coco was John's little dog..
When he first had the accident he was flown to a large hospital in a neighboring city.
After they had given him morphine to ease his pain. He asked me to go get Coco.
He said, "Nita go get Coco. Sneak her up here under your shirt or put her in your purse."
I said, "Honey I can't, they won't allow her up here right now."
"But I want her.." It still makes me cry..
I sent Elizabeth to buy a stuffed animal so he would think it was Coco. When she got back she handed me the fake puppy.
It looked very much like Coco..I handed the puppy to John and he hugged it to him, then glanced down. He said, "I may be on drugs but I am not stupid!"
When he was out of danger I began to bring Coco for visits with John. This picture is him with his first visit with her.
You can see the love on his face for her. He made me promise that I would sleep with her every night until he got home. I still do.
She is blind so I have to carry her outside to go to the bathroom and then carry her back in. Coco is 13 years old..John use to pray everyday that she would live long enough to see him home...
She is still waiting. She goes to sit by the door at 4:00p.m. every day..
Waiting for someone to show up who never will.. I am still waiting too.
It has been a sad day..I am so lost without John.
~Nita~
Today's song, When I Stop Dreaming
1st video, 1st clip
If you have a chance to listen to this, it is really beautiful..
It is how I feel about John.
25 comments:
I'll pray for you. I know it must be very difficult. I have not walked in your shoes, so I cannot truly say that I know how you must feel. My sister-in-law, whom I am VERY close to, lost her husband in 2001. We've talked a lot and she has shared much of her grief with me. God will see you through. You are such a special person.
I hope tomorrow is better. I think it is good that you can express your grief here on your blog. It is good to share your struggles.
I remember last year that day your brought Coco to John! Itwas a good day!
I too remember the picture when you posted it last year. I love the look of pure content on Johns face. I'm so sorry today was sad for you Nita. Keep writing about it..this is your blog to put your feelings and emotions into words.
I know how much my husband misses both his sisters. They both died last year about 3 months apart. He still sees them in strangers faces and misses them so much. Take comfort in knowing that you will be reunited in God's loving arms.
Love does live forever....
I am sad for you and your little dog. I am thinking of you.
Elizabeth in Australia
How funny his comment was! Even in his pain he can crack a joke. Glad you were able to get Coco up to him I am sure it brought him comfort. My Dad was a dog lover also after he died his dog would go sleep by his side of the bed even though he was not there.
Yes, you can see the love in his smile. I'm glad you sleep with Coco.
Hugs,
Rose
Your words so touched my heart today. What a great love and gift you were given. I'm sorry for your grief and pray God will lift your heart and give you His comfort.
Nita,
What a sweet picture of your John and Coco. I'm glad you're watching over Coco for John. It can also be a healing thing for you. I hope you get a large measure of peace today!
The other Nita...
He knows sweetheart...He'll be there with you as long as you need him...Beautiful and touching picture...such warmth...i love you...hughughughughugs
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This is Sarah from The World an It's Roses. Just wanted to say hi
Keep in your heart, Nita, that all of you---you, John, Coco--all of your family will be reunited one day.
God bless you, Nita...and the woman whom you hugged the other day. You are both angels among us.
what a sweet picture, I love to see men be lovey like that...you can tell your John was sweet gentle man, after all I'm sure you would have had it no other way! what a wonderful memorey. I'm sorry I havent posted on your last one but I am as soon as I get done here...Been thinking about you ALOT!! Love to you always
Annette
John will see Coco again someday in heaven.
It is so sad that she still waits for him. What a loyal puppy.
I am so sad that you are sad today.
You are in my thoughts everyday Nita and I pray for your broken heart everynight.
Hugs
God Bless you and Coca and Elizabeth and the boys
Love
Patti
You and John shared such a beautiful life of love.
so many wonderful memories you shared with this john of yours.....makes me hurt for you, nita....but love the glimpses you show us....of your life...you are always in my heart and prayers...for comfort and peace...and i know this treasure chest of memories that is overflowing will someday be such a comfort to you....
hugs and prayers nita....
kimberly
So horribly sad...I'm glad you're still helping Coco cope...I'm sure she's doing the same for you.
Prayers for you and John...
Sandi
Oh I wish I was there with you so I could give you a big hug! I'm feeling down today and reading your post made me cry so I can just imangine how you are feeling.
I hope someday someone loves me as much as you loved John. What a wonderful gift you gave him.
Hugs,
Joanne
Hi Nita, I just wanted to stop by and let you know I have given your blog an award. Come by for a visit.
Nita,
Isn't it amazing how animals sense our feelings. I'm sure Coco brings you much comfort.
Nita,
I think of you daily. I love this photo and the smile on John's face with Coco. I wish I could wipe away the sorrow, instead I will hold your hand.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Nita.
Oh Nita please know you and Coco are so wrapped in love, not only the love John had for you both but your many friends here and at home. I wish I could ease the pain you're in even a fraction. {{HUGS}}
Oh, Nita... My heart hurts so much for you right now... Donna
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