I was thinking about so many things today..I thought about the way my Mom taught me how to make my bed at the age of 4..How she would smile at me with her broken eyes..And explain to me gently how to tuck corners and pull the bedspread over the pillows, and how to tuck the cover under the pillows.

She said, "Nita, we make beds so our room will look nice..Do you understand."

"Yes Momma, I do." And I would hug her legs so tight.

She went through so much..We all go through so much on this earth don't we?

We struggle and we wonder, "Why is this happening to me." We wonder, "Can I make it?"

You can make it. You will live. It is going to hurt like hell sometimes. But I have found this out. In my darkest night God is the light to my path.

I have been through things that would make strong men weak.

I have came close to having a complete and total nervous breakdown in the past 3 years, a few times. But, when I saw myself headed that way. I reached out for help. I went to consoling. I am not too proud to admit that.

Struggle makes us see the true person we are, I believe that.

I send you love...Don't give up..Love Nita

tonight's song, is the video beneath this post, an old favorite... Dancing When the Stars Go Blue by Ryan Adams

my thought for the evening too, "people can't be replaced" sometimes we have such a deep connection to another human being we don't even realize it until they are gone from our life.