"I'm Movin' On" - Rascal Flatts Official Music Video

"I have dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons..Finally content with a past I regret. I have found you find strength in your moments of weakness. For once I am at peace with myself. I have been burdened by blame. Trapped in the past for too long. I'm moving on.."

The lyrics to this song are powerful..

I myself, have lived in the past for too long. That has been me. Feeling regret for every mistake I made with my kids. Regret for when I should have been patient and was not. Regret for not being able to understand John many times.

Our past can trap us, just like a physical obstacle can stop us physically.

I have loved like I should. But lived like I shouldn't. That has been me..

But I am moving on...

I am getting rid of stuff I should have gotten rid of along time ago. Stuff I have held onto that had memories ...

But than I became a hoarder. Do you know why people become hoarders? Because it is so hard to let go of people. I kept all my kid's school papers that had A's and some that didn't so they could see that making aB or C was OK. As long as they were trying.

I cleaned them out this week. I saved only a few from each grade and gave them to each child. Then burnt the rest. I still had John's clothes..I am taking them to the Salvation Army. Someone could use those. I am taking extra dishes to the Salvation Army too. Someone could use those too. The extra blankets are going to people who could use them. I have one person picked out to give some too. She has three little kids.

But possessions are just material things. The memories are within us. They won't leave. Even when people get old memories come back to them..The best ones. Have you ever noticed that?

I am going to organize the rest of my stuff...When I was a teenager I was very organized. I think people become hoarders also, because they just don't know what to do with the stuff. Elizabeth has moved back home and is helping me. She had some terrible experiences where she moved and came back.

She cried because she felt like she failed. I told her no you did not fail. You will be able to do the things you want to do. Just build yourself up and then do them.

I have always been told that failure is success turned inside out. I have failed so many times. But I don't give up. I pick myself up and I start over again.

It has been hard to admit I am a hoarder. Because you always see the people on TV where they find dead cats under their stuff that is not me. But I have found weird things. LoL

I encourage you today if you have something hard to face, don't beat yourself up. Please don't. Just face it with a brave heart. Because you can do it. I believe that with my whole heart.

love Nita