Tuesday, June 10, 2008

We were laying in bed facing each other. I had my arm around John and he had his arm around me.

The soft rays of the late afternoon sun were filtering in the window casting showers of butterscotch upon us, and it was peaceful. It was one of those rare days that we were alone. The kids had spent the night with friends and we were just enjoying our time alone.

He reached up and moved my bangs out of my face. Then he softly ran his thumb down my check, and then he put his thumb under my chin and moved my face slowly up to meet his.

His lips were warm and tender upon mine.

He said,"If you could go anywhere in the whole world right now where would you go?"

I ran my hand down his bare hip...He slapped my hand and told me to concentrate.

I laughed.

"I would go to Tuscany probably, and me and you would have our second honey moon.
We could explore the the ruins in Rome too.
And go look in the antique shops.

He was staring at me while I talked, with warm eyes that glowed green brown, and I felt so loved at that moment.

I loved him too much. And when you love someone like that it has the power to destroy you. They become your world.

"Where would you go ?" I asked Him.

"Ireland, You and me and the kids.
We could go see where the Quiet Man was filmed and go see the castles and ruins there."

He had this dreamy look on his face. And I wished at that moment that I could give him anything he had ever wanted, no matter the cost.

I miss him, and how we would spend those precious moments together. And how we would go for rides in the country and go to the show. Or just go look around at antique stores. We never usually bought much, but we really enjoyed looking. Or we just stayed in bed and talked and took a nap.. John made everyday special.

This is one of my finest memories...

Today's songs, Lost Without Your Love by Bread
1st video, 1st clip

Night's in White Satin by The Moody Blues
2nd video and 1st clip

If you have a chance to listen to these please do.
They remind me of John.


Mya said...

Very beautiful.

The Feathered Nest said...

What a beautiful post sweet Nita. Memories are the most precious. I'm so very sorry.....he is watching over you with love...I just know it...xxoo, Dawn

The Artful Eye said...

Dear Nita,
What a beautiful memory and so intimate. Sending you hugs and comfort.xox Andrea

* mY fRiEnDs cALL mE Rella * said...

Knights in White I remember quiet summer nights and falling asleep to that song playing in the other highschool sweetheart and I, newly married. I was 19 and he was 21. The smell of phlox drifting up to the open windows of the apartment that was so big for the two of us and our two cats. I love that song. It always brings me back. I understand.

xo Rella

Just Joni said...

Nita dear, you have been "tagged"...hope you don't mind!

Love this beautiful post...a very touching memory~

Anonymous said...

You have such a way with words Nita. That's a beautiful memory. I'll bet you could gather everthing into a collection of short writings. Anger by the way is good. It does help and it won't last forever. It may be hard to believe right now but it won't always feel this intense. Life will sometime feel better. I admire how you are processing through everything.

Laurie said...

I love you Nita and I hear your heart here. Nights in White Satin, I forgot how many days and nights we listened to that song playing on the stereo, just laying around without a care in the world (except the usual bills). You will never forget these intimate memories with John, and they will hopefully hurt less in time, but you won't forget. It is the risk we take when falling in love so completely. But so worth it somehow.

Love and Huge Hugs, Laurie in Ca.

~Red Tin Heart~ said...

Laurie: There is a line in the song by Bread Lost Without Your Love, that says I can't believe it is real.
I feel that way about John being gone.
I can't believe it is real. I know it is true, but it is so hard to know he won't be back home.
That is all he wanted, to come home.
It kept him going.. Thank you my friend for your comments and love you send me daily..You will never know how much it means.
Love Nita

Donna said...

My heart is with you sweetie...hughughughugs

Nonnie said...

you write so beautifully nita....and with your amazing photos.....i see a beautiful memory book in the are such a talented lady. both songs and they bring me back also....thankful for memories.
hugs and prayers my friend,

Sally said...

Thank you, Nita, for sharing such a beautiful memory, and moment in time. God bless.

Debbie said...

Mz. Haley was married for 20 years and never experienced love this wonderful...I'm so happy you did even though you miss him so terribly now...Beautiful, sweet post Nita :)

Thank you for your sweet comment!

Jeanne said...

Both beautiful songs and very perfect with the memory you shared. {{HUGS}}

Brenda said...

I can only imagine what it would be like to be so in love as you and John were. I'll be married for 37 years next month and I can never remember feeling such love. I envy you.

Anonymous said...

Hi Nita,
I like you have recently lost my husband. Elgin was killed on May 11, 2008 (Mother's Day) when a 21 year old boy crossed the center line and hit him head on. Both trucks burst into flames and Elgin was killed on impact and was burnt beyond recognition. Like you, I don't know how to handle the pain that is in my heart. I try to run from it but it just keeps finding me. We were married for 33 years and he was my life. I keep asking God, How am I going to live without him. How do I go from being Elgin's wife to being his widow. How do I go from being married for 33 years to not being married. How will my heart go on without him? How? How? How?

Treasure Barn said...

What a special nmemory! So sweet.


Annette said...

Sweet Nita,
Have you ever thought about writting love poem as well, your stories about you and your John remind me so much of a love novel or a poem, I can feel every word you write, and you know what dear friend your John is traveling the all over the universe! Memories are our gift that we can ALWAYS hang on to. BIG HUG'S ALWAY'S

Joanne Kennedy said...

This is a lovely post. I can really feel the love between the two of you.

I don't know your whole story as I'm reading backwards through your blog but your posts are so full of emotion.



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