Life goes so fast... One minute John and I were making plans for a new home. Then I was making plans for his funeral. I picked out all of his favorite songs and we burned them on a disk to play at the visitation and for the funeral.
My children and I sat and picked out all of our favorite pictures of him and us we had it made in a slideshow to play along with the music we had for John. We had 150 photos picked out. Elizabeth stayed up to 4:00 a.m. scanning them.
I put him in his Levi's and a John Deere shirt. He would have loved that.
That was John. He was not about suits. He would have haunted me if I would have put a suit on him.
He actually had a smile on his face. A little smile... I can't quit crying.
It is so lonley without him.
I dreamed about him last night.. He put his arms around me and showed me where he was staying in Heaven. He was by a little pond in a camper. He had a little bon fire by the pond. I know that sounds funny, but that is what we always wanted. A little pop up camper to go camping with.
He said , "Honey I am good. I am happy."
I said, " But I miss you so much." He put his arms around me and I woke up.

I have wandered around in shock. It does not seem real yet.
~Nita~

song, Fall by Clay Walker
This was John ..