A loving heart is the truest wisdom.
~ Charles Dickens
I ran my fingers down his check bone. Touching the hollows so softly.
He said, "Why do you stare at me when you think I am not looking?"
"Because I can't quit looking at you." I said softly.
"I want to memorize you, so when you aren't around I can pull the memory of you up in my heart."
He laughed like he always did.
" You are a funny girl that's why I like you."
He loved Spring. He loved it that I planted flowers, bushes, trees and that I had a garden every year. I have Raspberry bushes in the side yard and he always liked to go pick a handful when he was mowing the grass in the Summer. He babied the strawberry plants and would be just beam when he went to pick them and there would be enough for strawberry shortcake.
I planted roses by the driveway, and in the Summer would pick them and put them in a vase and place them on a freshly laundered tablecloth. I made sure they would be there for supper time.
I always made his plate and waited on him. I didn't do it because I had to, I did it because I wanted to do it. I did it for my kids too.
He said, "I feel lucky that you do special things like that for me. You make my plate and have flowers on the table and have ice tea for me every day. It makes me feel good.
It made my heart hurt because his words made me feel so loved.
I miss him...
These are some pictures I took a few weeks ago. A picture of a wooded area, and my iris bed getting ready to bloom.
I want to thank everyone who has left comments. I have been so busy with helping my Mom I have not had time to answer or visit each one of you individually. I am hoping things will be getting back to normal in the next few weeks. Dad is getting better, but slowly. He was very sad yesterday. He was having a very bad day. I have been getting movies from the library and watching them with him to keep his spirits up.
And I stay with him while Mom does errands.
It has just been a tiring time. I am just worn out when I get home and usually drop into bed.
So I am sorry for not visiting but I promise I will real soon. I am thinking of you all and saying a prayer for you too.
Love Nita
Tonight Song, You Got a Friend by James Taylor
Tonight Song, You Got a Friend by James Taylor
1st video, 1st clip
This song reminds me of John more than any song. He and I listened to James Taylor a lot. I said to him one day, "If I call out your name will you come running?"
"Depends on what it's for. But all I know is you better not call me late for supper." LoL
I loved the way he made me laugh.
I close my eyes and think of him....
19 comments:
So sorry sweetie for everything you're going through!!...My prayers are constant for you and your family!!!hughugs
I am praying for rest and peace for you Nita. You are going through the most exhausting time and I hurt for you. I hope that you will post pictures of the iris bed when they bloom. They are such incredible "eye candy" and delicate. And I still love listening to James Taylor, he has such a way with words about life.
This is not the way I hoped Spring would be for you my friend but I can hope for better days ahead for you to be right around the corner:)
Don't feel bad about not getting back to people here, I know we all understand and are here to support you through. Love you and praying for you. John is so alive in your heart and you memorized him well.
Hugs and Hope, Laurie in Ca.
no worries, mi Amor, know that I am thinking of you and loving you ...
:-)
(((HUGS))),
Love,
Me
love your thoughts today, nita....and i think of you so often and the burdens you are bearing. please know you are thought of and prayed for....
love james taylor too...saw him in person...same sweet voice after all these years!
hugs,
kimberly
lovely post...Nita.
be well blessed
So glad to read your words tonight. I've missed you.
amanda
Your blog speaks to me. Don't remember how I found it, but I've been reading and my heart just goes out to you. Come and visit me on my little page anytime.
Janera
Bless your sweet heart, Nita. I know times are hard for you.
I am so sorry that everything is so hard and exhausting for you, Nita. I think about you and pray for you often.
Kate xxx
Hi Nita,
Hug on to those memories and let them give you strength. Know that you are loved and that God will get you through this, one little step at a time. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it will get better.
You're always in my prayers.
Much love,
Dena
Nita, I hope you are taking the time to rest. You don't have to worry about us.Granted we miss you but we'll be here. In the meantime, I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.
That's the feeling that will get you through -- the knowledge that he loved you. He loved you: that's his legacy to you.
xoxo
Such nice photos. Love the trees all twined together. You're in my prayers.
Pam
What a beautiful memory. I am sure you still remember all the features of his face.
I am sorry your Dad is feeling sad. I am sure lots of us want to send him a card but we need an address. Get well wishes to him Nita.
Get some rest, As always you are in my prayers
Hugs and God Bless You
Patti
Still praying for you dear friend...
Mimi
I thought of you as I planted some of my vegetable garden last week. I was wondering if you were still going to plant a garden in memory of John. Maybe you have little spare time. Hugs and prayers for your aching heart.
Missing you...
And you've been tagged.
If you don't feel like it, that's cool.
Love you
amanda
Just stopping in to say I'm still thinking of you and hope things are getting better each and every day!
Stopping by to check in on you dear friend. I am praying that things are getting better for you day by day. Love you and hope to see you here soon when you have time. I miss you.
Love and Prayers, Laurie in Ca.
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